All the broken ground I had worked so hard to reclaim seem to be slipping out of my grasp. An incredible overwhelming feeling washed over me as I found myself questioning if the last four years of this healing process were in vain. But, in all reality I had not lost the ground I had gained. Even with the painful acknowledgement of my husband’s relapse I still had a new foundation and belief of who I was to fall on. The revelation of God’s love that I had experienced over the past four years was still there. Yes, this relapse pushed my husband and my relationship back some, but it could not steal any piece of me that I was not willing to give up.
Redemption is a gift from God and no one can rob from me the healing that God has done in my life. I know that the future can hold heartache and pain, but I stand again on the solid ground knowing that I am loved and precious to God.
As I begin another broken journey with my husband by my side, I do not walk it in the same way as I did before. This time I journey on knowing who I am and with a realization that no matter what happens God is always with me. Because of this truth I can put one foot in front of the other.
It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery. ~Galatians 5:1