Tradre is the Latin word for betray and means to hand over. I had given my heart to my lover and he betrayed it, handing my treasure over to the enemy as if it had no importance or value to him. This intense feeling of unfaithfulness started to overtake me and I needed to understand why my husband betrayed me. I needed to start to find freedom for myself.
Desperately trying to search for hope and truth I started to devour books about what this addiction really was. Everything I was reading contradicted the lies that were racing through my mind. This was not about what I did or did not do, but about a choice my husband made. Meg Wilson writes it so well in her book Hope After Betrayal “My husband’s addiction was not about me. I wasn’t there when it started. I didn’t do anything to cause it. And I could not change it.” I had to tell myself this truth over and over again before it finally sunk in.
Knowing this helped to remind myself that I still had a lot of value! After the betrayal it is so easy for us to see ourselves as less than worthy. The truth is you are seen as a precious treasure to the Lord and he cares deeply for you!