For myself, feelings of abandonment and loneliness are often followed by pity, whimpering and whining about the path of my life. Similar to Esther, I did not choose this journey, still as I wallow in the old sorrow my focus becomes completely self-obsessed, neglecting the bigger picture. The once familiar way of holding the brokenness of life so close to my face, blinding me from the hope of freedom, can easily become my “go to” default button.
Thankfully, God’s desires for our lives is not that we fall into the trap of self-pity, instead realize that there is plan beyond the pain. Embracing the journey is a matter of acknowledging our deep pain, being real with the despair, and careful not to point the finger in blame. It is finding freedom through forgiveness. It is accepting that the scars from the betrayal might always be intertwined into the fabric of life, but it is those wounding blemishes that will lead us to the Savior and make our fragmented heart more beautiful than before.
When I decided to embrace my journey and accept that my life looked differently than my childhood dreams, it was only then that I could take my eyes off the broken pieces of my shattered world and onto the wholeness of a Savior. I believe that Esther understood this revelation, having the insight that the prophet Isaiah spoke of in Isaiah 43:18,19 “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See I am doing a new thing! I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.”
Let’s be as courageous as Esther, being willing to see that even though our lives look different than we hoped, God still has a unique plan for each of us. You see, rejection does not have to be the last chapter of your life story, but the beginning of a precious journey with a Heavenly Father who loves you passionately!