Kintsukuroi, the Japanese art of repairing pottery with gold, is a word that I might have trouble pronouncing but it has had a significant part of how I see myself. The saying goes that a young servant was taking a clay cup to a high ranking military leader. On the boy’s way, the pottery slipped from his hands and shattered on the ground. Instead of the fierce anger of the leader overtaking the servant, the military officer in turn had his favorite cup repaired with gold. Because of how it was repaired, the piece of pottery became more valuable than it had been before the damage. It goes on to say “the life of the pottery began the moment it was broken...”
I saw myself as that broken and mangled piece of pottery. Laying on the ground just waiting for someone to sweep me up and dispose of the mess I had become. But instead of God just throwing me away, He began to repair me. My life did not stop the day when my husband’s disclosure ripped apart my foundation, it was only the beginning of a journey of allowing God to glue me back together with His gold, His love.
So many of us carry a heart that has been severed apart by rejection, causing us to see ourselves as damaged. Jeremiah 18:4 says “But the pot he was shaping from the clay was marred in his hands, so the potter formed it into another pot shaping it as seemed best to him.”
God can begin to take your fragmented heart and repair it with “gold.”
Your identity can change from being a woman who is damaged to being a daughter loved by God!